So, I drew this today, and it was the first time I’ve drawn since this and that was the first thing I’d drawn since… I don’t even know when. I literally drew this because I had a piece of paper and a ballpoint pen and my options were do nothing but stare at the wall or draw. So I drew. And it was fun! Though this is terrible. I mean, no offence if you happen to like it - yay! But this looks like something I would find in an agenda from five years ago, which just brings up a whole bunch of feelings that basically amount to “oh god what am I doing”. My problem being that I do like drawing, it probably makes me feel better than anything else, but I am so neurotic I can never bring myself to actually start work unless I do this - which is to say doodle something that gets me nothing but, maybe fifteen minutes of enjoyment followed by regret that I couldn’t commit to actually doing something nice.
So basically my point is I suck and have too many feelings and don’t know what to do about anything.
